Friday, September 25, 2009

The heart's door talkin 2 the head's door!

- Hi heart are u ok?
- Yes mind, Im great! Why r u askin, Am i doing something weird, or are u feeling im weird? Have i been done something to make u think that im not ok or are u seen something wrong?
- No heart, its ok... just wondering...
- I know u r just wondering, and im tellin ya its ok, fine... couldnt be any better!!
- Ow so its fine, if u'r ok, its good right?
- Do ya know mind? its ok my ass!!! nothing is ok if u r so boring and stupid! How can something be ok? i used 2 have fun with ur thoughts, i used 2 have hope with ur straight! We used 2 be like twins, now we are so far away!
- we live in the same door, heart... what does it means "far away"??
- Its wht im talkin abt! U dont understand, u used to uderstand every thing that i was feelin, ... now u dont even try 2 understand! we used 2 have so much 2 share, and now u have 2 ask if im ok!
- Yeh heart, u know i realized that! we used to have so much ...
- Yes mind, so much to share, so much to find, so much to laugh .. so much!! and now wht we got? Nothing, just u wonderin, doubtin, afraid ... just a miserable connection cause we are hangin in the same place!
- Ow heart, is it so bad??
- So bad? its awfully bad! its so bad that we'r sweetin the fact that its not ok! where are the real u mind? That mind, full of news, funny jokes, with a lot to think about... always surprising me, with a lot of good thoughts that I used to follow... thoughts that made me beat fast and strong...thoughts that i used to believe! Although, where are that warm heart, full of happiness, joy ??... always overjoyin the situations that u used 2 put me through! That heart was always jumpin, feelin, wishin, believin... that heart was always willin 2 fill ya with my best... now we r so far away that i dunno where i can find u...such distance between us!
- yeh heart...i dunno wht to say....
- U know wht is hurtin the most mind?
- No...
- That's wht im talkin abt!!
- About wht?
- Never mind !
- Never mind, what heart?
- Forget abt everything that i said mind!
- U know, i guess we need to talk ...
- Yes we really need to talk... maybe i can find out that mind!
- Now?
- Ow why not? ow maybe this mind is too busy to talk, cause has too much to think about, things that even hurtin ya mind u r thinkin.... things that u used to dont pay attention, now u r all attention!! these things are changin ya... ya promissed me u would never change! u promissed never shut me out!
- Im didnt shut u out, its just ...
- You dont even know wht it is... u dont know how its hurts... hurts bad!
- What hurts? Are you hurt?
- No, i told ya before, IM OK!
- We can talk abt later
- Later? later means tomorrow, after tomorrow or next month? i dont believe u anymore!
- Why dont u believe in me? Why are u so dumb? Cause u are not the same... dont you see that we r fallin apart?? dont u see that its gonna hurt, even more? Do ya care??
- Yes heart, i do care but ...
- But... never mind ! u r a mind, im a heart, how did i think that we could get along like before? we r on different sides, we r so different actually ... u dont care abt feelings, u dont need them, so u dont understand! i dont know how i could believe that had something special between us... how dare i to think that Im good enough for a mind!
- We just have different needs!! you need hope i need a real thing, you need believe i need to see!! So heart dont be sad, we'r not done!!
- sad, dont be sad?? ow mind, cant u see that u affect me!!?? While you r imaginin, im dreamin... when u r waitin , im expectin ... i feel everything that u think... when u r confuse, Im lost... while u r tryin 2 find something, Im gettin hurt!!!
- Never thought abt that ...
- Cause mind, u r too busy for a heart, u r too good 4 a feelin!!
- you r right heart! Im too cold for your heat!!! But we can talk later ...
- Yes we can talk later!!!

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